This will be a shorter post, more so just to update you with my current situation.
I've been feeling relatively healthy for the last two weeks, and it's been a strange experience. It happened fairly suddenly, the up swing of my moods, so I am hesitant to talk about it because I'm afraid it will go away and back to the darkness.
It's funny though, at first when I started feeling better, I felt like I missed my depressed mind. I had been severely depressed for so many months, that was my normal. And now I didn't know what to do with my days, what to blog or talk about. I liked my dark mind, in some twisted way only people with depression could understand.
But this relief, even if it is soon to go, has been helpful for myself, and for Ryan, and it has given us both some time to recharge and refuel for the next big bang.
Side note: has anyone seen the movie "Silverlinings Playbook"?
It's about a guy who has bipolar, and a girl who has depression or borderline personality disorder. I'd like to talk about that movie on this blog, so what are your initial thoughts? Questions?
This is a blog about my journey with bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed spring of 2011 and was admitted into a mental health hospital a month before my wedding. I struggled greatly for the next year and a half going on and off meds, experimenting with different forms of therapy and was readmitted to the hospital at the end of 2012. Since then I have been learning how to re-live my life. Seeing a wise, supportive, kind therapist once a week and emerging myself into Dialectical Behavioural Therapy are 2 of many ways that are helping me recover. I have found deep comfort and much strength in mindfulness practices, taught to me from DBT.
This blog is my way of allowing you to see into the life of someone who suffers from bipolar, depression and extreme anxiety. I want to own my story, and help defeat the stigma. I hope you find some comfort in knowing you are not alone, or learn more about mental illness through the writings of my blog.